Sorry it's been so long since I've updated everyone on our progress. I haven't posted because there is nothing to report. There are delays in Thailand and the program is slowing down or grinding to a halt...I don't think that's true but it's how I feel. I have read on numerous blogs that waiting for first approval was the hardest part of the wait and after experiencing it, I agree.
We have tried to keep ourselves busy this summer and so far we have accomplished that and had fun doing it! We have spent a lot of time with Isaac and his baseball team. I have come to truly value the friendships we have made with the parents on the team. We also have been swimming although Isaac keeps having a reaction to the chemicals in the pool so he hasn't had the most fun with that. I feel terrible for him! He had a Dr. visit today and hopefully we have the problem figured out and it won't happen again. We have gone to Silver Dollar City a couple of times, we love riding the rollar coasters! And we plan on going to White Water this Saturday with my family!
Along with all our summer activities Jason has had the opportunity to purchase his own distributorship. It was a hard decision to make because Jason has been at his job for 13 years but it was an opportunity we couldn't pass up! So, this Friday is Jason's last day at his job and then he begins a new chapter in his career! Wow, this was a hard one for me. From the very first thought of adopting I have had complete faith that God would take care of us financially and in every other aspect pertaining to the adoption because I was positively sure that it is the path he wanted us to take. Since we started the adoption process over 2 years ago I have come to realize that I was letting God have control of the adoption but in my mind I was still hanging onto everything else. Rationally I know that I cannot control anything that will or is happening in our lives but on some level in my controlling mind I hadn't given over everything to God. When Jason was presented the opportunity to step out and be self employed I was scared to death but we prayed about it and I realized this was my time to truly give everything over to God. Not only to walk in faith with our adoption but to also step out in faith with the rest of our lives. What a freeing feeling it has been to let God lead!
I will admit there are some days when I feel like I don't have the strength to wait one more day to see Lauren's face and I grow weary of the 2 plus year process, but there's always that still small voice that tells me I DO have the
strength to go on because The Lord renews my strength every day, every
hour, every minute. I CAN wait on Gods perfect timing because his
timing is perfect. I love The Lord my God with all my strength, with
all my soul, and with all my mind. I am walking in faith and he will
see me through.